24 oct 2010
When I was in pri and sec sch, I was a stickler for maintaining friendships and refuse to let any guy get in the way of my friendships. I saw firsthand how my friends could abandon their friend over a boy and I didn’t like it. From then on, I promise myself to not get into dating or relationships with a guy until I’m mature enough to have one. And so I set the age of maturity as 20.
There were a few guys here and there during that time but I never allow myself to get close to anyone.Pride? maybe, but I think it was mostly fear. Fear of letting anyone get too close. It’s not that I don’t notice guys, who doesn’t right, but I was still trying to overcome my shyness with guys and for me to be comfortable with them. Getting involved in relationship is a complicated thing I suppose. The first step in knowing each other is the hardest. And I realised that it takes both parties to be truly truthful of their feelings for each other to make it work.
I’ve had my share of dating, as they call it, and I’m not clueless anymore about what I want in a relationship. Someone who truly cares and whom I can care about, miss and accepting everything in him including the flaws. And I’m hoping he’s the one.
